Today is my 39th birthday. Based on the average life expectancy of Chinese men, I’m already in the second half of life. My parents are alive and in good health. I have a warm family, and a lovely wife and son. I have a good home, and after covering the mortgage, I still have savings left.
But my physical condition is not very good. I have various minor health issues, and the biggest problem is anxiety. My inner world is not at peace, and I easily fall into anxiety. Even taking a nap is difficult — I sleep for a while, then wake up, and once I wake up, my whole body feels tight.
In the second half of life, I don’t want to keep living like this. Half of my time will go to my body and emotions; everything else comes after that.
Grateful for life. The second half will be better.